a moment please

have you fancied someone so unbelievably wonderful (at least you'd like to think she is) that you find yourself trying to steal galnces at every opportunity you get? be it in the lecture theatre, canteen or even when she's running round the track. but you know despite how much you change or what you do, she'll will always be too good for you. and regardless of how hard you try, you're fully aware nothing will happen. consigned forever to always fall short. maybe you'll be freinds with her. tops. still somehow you wanna try. even if you're content with admiring from afar at the moment. your brain can't compute the fact that she's waaay beyond you. either you're too thick or too taken in with her (notice i do not use love. love is a very strong word. a word not to be taken lightly or used without heartfelt sincerity the way it's being thrown around nowadays. unless you wanna bang her. then its cool)

well i have. or rather i am. i don't know. and i feel painfully inadequate.


when you smile i melt inside,
i'm not worthy for a minute of your time.